She's the one.

It was around 9 or 10pm when my mom called me and said “the dog’s here”. I ran outside expecting one little puppy but then I saw a few…and so I got confused. Our parents gave us pets before but we weren’t able to pick which one we like because they would just bring home a cat, a dog, a bird, or a fish…and that’s it. But that time was different.

The man was carrying 2 cages (1 huge and 1 small). I first looked at the puppy in the small cage…

Me: Ano yan? Bakit ganyan sya?

Mg: Bakit ang panget? Kamukha ni *bleep*. :)  (This made me laugh so hard! Haha!)

Man: It’s a pug.

Me and Mg: ahhhhhhh… (Haha! Halatang wala pa kaming alam non sa mga aso and mga breeds)

Then we checked out the huge cage with 5 puppies.

Mg: CATS AND DOGS!!!

Me: Snoopy!!

Haha! No, there are no cats there. Mg shouted “cats and dogs” because we saw this kind of dog in that movie and I shouted “snoopy” because they are like snoopy but not white. :)

Man: Beagle sila.

Me and Mg: ahhhhh…

Those 5 puppies all look the same to me and I can’t even tell if it’s a male or a female. So, the man helped us out…he said that we should pick a female because it’s way more expensive than males plus the fact that we can also sell her puppies if she gets pregnant. From 5…now, it’s down to 3.

1^st puppy: quite big for a puppy. Don’t like.

2^nd puppy: She’s a very shy puppy. She’s hiding behind her brothers and sisters. Don’t like.

3^rd puppy: Wow! Someone’s hyper! Haha! She’s small and has lots of energy. I think this is it…

Me: Mg, anong gusto mo?

Mg: Yun..(yung pug daw. Hahaha!)

Kinuha nung lalake yung 3^rd puppy and binigay sakin. I don’t have any idea how to hold a puppy kasi it’s been a long time since we last have a pet in the house. Pero, nung kinarga ko sya tapos she got super excited parang  natransfer sakin yung energy nya and she made me happy. Then I said,

“She’s the one. “

This is not my baby bear. pero hawig nya. :) wala kasi akong baby pictures nya eh.

Parang scene lang sa movie. I thought exaggeration lang yung napapanood ko na scene where a boy or a girl is choosing his or her first puppy then suddenly we see a glowing dog then the camera goes back to the child and guess what… the child is glowing too. :) haha! The dog I’m carrying is not glowing and I definitely don’t look like I’m glowing but it feels like it. It felt like we are happy together. :)

We went inside the house and I gave her a tour. And then I thought, Are we ready for a puppy? Because the dogs we used to have all lasted for only a few weeks. After a few weeks papamigay nanamin kasi my sister’s afraid of dogs and she gets sick because of it. Sayang naman kung papamigay namin sya kasi she’s super beautiful. Will she last? I don’t know.

After that short tour, binaba ko sya sa floor and I sat beside her. I was expecting that she would run away from me and run all over the house but she didn’t. She sat on my lap. She just stayed there with me. She’s a cute little puppy and she peed on me. GREAT!  Our relationship has been sealed. :) sealed with a pee. Haha!

This is my gummy bear. Pinilit ko talaga syang suotan ng damit kahit hindi bagay sakanya. :)  Di na sya baby :)

  To be continued…

WHERE ARE YOU NOW?

Imagine. You’re in the cab, texting your friend and minding your own beeswax, not even checking where ya’ already at, when suddenly a freakin’ song caught your attention. What song? Honor Society’s “Where are you now?” This song really moved me…as in I seriously gasped and it instantly brought tears to my eyes. (Seryoso, te?! Maluha ba naman sa taxi, diba?! Exaggerate, much?) But who wouldn’t be moved by the lyrics of this song? (manhid?) 

While listening, my mind understood and my heart appreciated every word and every line it hears. Then…BAM! ...FLASHBACK! 


The past revisited in between lines and choruses… 

To my favorite teacher
Who told me, "never give up."
To my fifth grade crush
Who I thought I really loved 

*Naisip ko naman agad si Prof. Yu. :) 


*Fifth grade crush? LOL! I remember you. You’re the reason why I go to school SUPER early.  Just a glance and I’m okay! :)  

To my ex-bestfriends
Don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite bands
And sing-alongs in my car
To the face I see in my memories
Where are you now? 

*Thought it would stay that way forever. “ex-bestfriends” no more! :) Sabi nga sa book ni Mitch Albom (Five People You Meet In Heaven) “Lost love is still love, Eddie. It takes a different form, that’s all.” LOST love? Good thing I FOUND you guys again. :)  Finally found the love we lost. :) “They will never tear us up again” We won’t let them. Favorite band? More of favorite rapper…We heart GLOC9 back then...We may not have our own cars way back but we owned the jeepneys, tricycles, pedicabs and taxi cabs na nasakyan natin. (Tayo lang sakay? Wa care?) We will just sing our hearts out!!  SIMPLENG TAO. 

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am 

*Where are you now? People tend to forget hurtful memories by also forgetting the person or people involved in that memory. Good thing there’s a famous phrase saying, “Time heals all wounds”. (Well, most of them, certainly not all. Obviously. ) When time finally helped to heal some of My wounds…I realized na hindi mo naman kailangan kalimutan talaga yung tao. | Yes, nasaktan ka. Move on and review what went wrong and were you able to do everything you can to fix all that’s broken. (MAJOR MAJOR?)| Anyhow, totoo naman kasing mahirap kalimutan ang isang memory, relationship and yung tao kung mas madami naman kayong pinagsamahan na maganda kesa dun sa iilang masaklap na nangyari sa mga buhay nyo. If you can mend it, then, by all means, go lang! Pero syempre dapat di lang ikaw yung nagaayos diba? Dapat lahat ng involved…involved parin sa pag”mimend”. After clearing things up, malamang…parang gumaan yung pakiramdam mo. Sabi nila, “Ang buhay minsan complicated” TAMA! MINSAN lang. Kaya wag mo ng gawing mas complicated pa ang buhay mo by collecting enemies dahbah?! :) Live a happy life with your family, friends and strangers. :) Anyway, tapos na  yung chorus. Next line na…

To my first girlfriend
I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend
Sorry that I screwed it up
To the ones I loved
But didn't show it enough
Where are you now?


*Girlfriend? Haha! :) ano ba! It’s just a phase. LOL! Game. First BF na. Haha! Alam ko namang di magtatagal. :) Next, Last BF…SUPER THANKS!! “You loved me at my worst and helped me to somehow regain everything I lost. You helped me remember the important things my mind chose to forget or block. You are truly a great friend. Let’s forever be friends. :) We are much happier that way. :) Hahaha! 

I know we'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
People change but I know I won't forget you

*Life is a looong journey. (looong talaga? :)) God provided us different paths and gave us freewill to decide which path to take. Where we are going? That…I don’t know. Haha!!  We may have the freewill to choose the path we wish to take but, unfortunately, we can’t choose the people who we want to be with us during that journey. Kasi it’s up to them na if they want to walk with us or take a different path instead. For those who are not walking beside me anymore and chose to take a different way… I bid you farewell and may God bless your trip and my trip!(LOL! Parang mga sign lang sa sasakyan!) And if  ever we reach a crossroad, I hope that there wont be any awkward moment and hope that we can talk and share experiences while trying to come to a decision,  again,  whether which road we want to take. I wish that we can walk together again…but if not…Well, good luck and let us be happy. YOWN.  

This is it. This is my favorite part!!! Haha! Ito na yon! LOL!!!! These are the lines that really really super duper uber moved me!!(Hits ya’ hard man!! Hits ya’ hard!). 


Here we go… 

To the ones who cared
And who were there from the start 

*During my “Flashback” moment, syempre mas lalo kong nakita kung sino yung mga tao na kasama ko parin “maglakad” sa “looong journey” ko. :) And I’m very thankful that they stayed. ‘Til forever guys…sana wala ng iwanan! Mahal ko kayo. I lily lily love you! Haha!  

To the love that left
And took a piece of my heart
 
*Now, for those who “left and took a piece of my heart”…Sige. Sa inyo na. haha! Pero seriously, Im thankful rin kasi naging part rin kayo ng life ko. Anyway, ITO NA TALAGA YUNG LINE NA GUSTO KO! (Haha! Kailangan ALL CAPS talaga?)  

To the few who'd swear,
"I'd never go anywhere"
Where are you now? 

*Lastly, for “the FEW who’d swear, “I’D NEVER GO ANYWHERE”…”WHERE ARE YOU NOW?!!!” Dun ako bitter eh. Haha! Masyado kong navalue yung relationship (relationship of friends or lovers pa yan. Basta relationship.) Kaya super sakit. (DRAMA!) Sa totoo lang, masyadong mabigat yung magpromise ka ng “I’d never go anywhere” or “will always be here for you” pero pag hinanap mo na sila magugulat ka na lang kasi WALA SILA. Sad. ‘Di man lang kayo nag “goodbye” or nagsabi man lang kung bakit aalis or kung may nagawi akong mali. Hanggang ngayon talaga bitter ako sa mga nag- “I’d never go anywhere” chorva na yan. Pero thankful pa din naman ako sa mga “BIGLANG NAWALA” pero bumalik naman din ulit. :) (YES. I’m talking about Bunso and Bern! Sana lang mabasa nyo to’. HAHA!) Now that you guys are back… sana naman wala ng biglang mawawala ulit. Sana wag na ulit mangyari yon. Pero kung maisipan nyo man na maging “bula” ulit… sabihin nyo naman sana kung bakit kayo aalis para naman I can change that and be a better person for the next FEW people who will be part of my life. I love you guys and I don’t wanna lose you now or ever again. And that goes for all the people who are part of my life now. Please don’t leave just like that *snap*. I love you and I hope you feel that and feel the same way too.  

People change. Our roles to the people we know change. Some started as “Friends” then become “Lovers” then most of the time they’re back to being “Strangers”.  Meron din naman yung “Friends”-“Bestfriends”-“Enemies”-“Strangers”. Kung ako lang papipiliin..sana di na lang ganon. (Sino bang may gusto ng ganon?) Kung maaayos…ayusin but sana ayusin ng maayos. Kung hindi na talaga then sana maghiwalay parin ng maayos. (AYOS! Haha!) How you heal or repair your heart is up to you cause’ only you knows how much it hurts. Bahala ka na… kaya mo yan. Like, let time heal your wounds...kahit pa di man sya mag-heal ng bonggang-bongga and may maiwan man na scar..just..let it heal. Slowly but surely. It may take months or years for it to heal, isipin mo na lang na “good things come to those who wait”. Di mo man kausapin yung naging kagalit mo ng 5,10, or 15 years…basta siguraduhin mo lang na magkakaroon kayo ng closure. Forgive and be forgiven…one of the best feeling ever.  


“Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves.” –ruby, (FPYMIH, Mitch Albom) You don’t have to forget…you just have to learn from it. Keep the memory like as if it’s included in your “not-to-do list” set aside the anger and hatred. That memory will just serve as an event you don’t want to happen again. 


I’ve finally reached my destination… Bababa na ako ng taxi. Haba ng biyahe! Haha! 


OVER! Ang daming kadramahan dahil lang sa isang kanta. :) Hmmmn…Kamusta na nga kaya sila? Hope they are doing okay. :) 


For those who left and for those who stayed... 


I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I’M THINKING OF YOU.